I do, really. I just woke up and was like... I wonder why they called the game "Vector man"
Long story short, it's because of vector graphics (it's a type).

Now I will try to go back to sleep...

That was a line from "A Moment To Remember" It is a good sad movie that made me cry like a crack baby.

Well today there was an eraser in my head, I erased most of my old LJ entries. 04-05 are gone. No need to remember that bullshit. I was a stupid kid that needed to be hit in the face, I was selfish, mean, arrogant, all in all an ass hole.
Therefore there was no need for them. I made entry #1 from when I met Michael, that seems like a good day to start fresh.

Data Lost...
Well it turns out that when we lost power I also lost one of my hard drives.... Bad part is that it was my hard drive with all ALL my old movies on it! I tried to load it today and it said it was corrupted. This is really depressing, I feel like shit now. The good, BIG versions of everything I worked on is now gone. And I don't have a Tape deck so I never backed any of that shit up!

I have reformatted the drive, and it works now, but still I have lost it all.

Yet, oddly enough, I don't feel too bad about it. What am I going to do with it? I mean really? They (the videos) were nice to have to show my progress, but they weren't ever going to be used again (I mean really, Wednesday and Wonder Bread?). I guess it is funny that it happens at the end of the year.


I still have Web quality of my videos, and a good version of "Know now." but I guess it's time to start over.


NEW MOVIE SOON
I will be needing extras after a while, I want this to be better than "Know now."
This weekend I will be meeting with Patsy about the new movie and will have a rough layout of what it will be.

I'll leave you with this...
Voices that echo in your head, what is real and what isn't? Thats for you to decide.

In short...
Michael left for Saudi Arabia today, it's sad and I will miss him.
He may be home in April, but if not then I won't see him till July.

The past four months were hard, now I might have to wait 7?


Long distance is hard, but I am glad I manage.

I'll try to update better, but I always say that.

Ok, yeah it's been a long time since I've updated, but I didn't have too much news then. BOY HAVE I GOT SOME NOW!

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Ok so afew weeks ago I went to Crdar Point with Pat(from Meijer) Dan his BF, and Michael thier friend. Well Michael and I talked for a long time then and we have every night since we've been back from CP. It's wonderful, and he's wonderful! Well we've been 'seeing eachother' for a while now and now I guess we're official. We talked about it last night. We were confused as to what we were, but we cleared it up(you know the whole seeing eachother, seeing eachother exclusively, ect.). He is a teacher at SVSU and getting his master this year in English at CMU.

In short I have a boyfriend.

Work
Work is awesome, i am learning a lot!, I like it all. I kinda wish I applied last year instead of Meijer, but if i didn't work there I'd never know Kelly, Carrie, Felicia, Pat(and then follow that down to Michael, and I'd be miserable and alone.) Today at work we tore down the set for "Perspectives" and I got a few splinters (or are they Slivers? [if anyone knows the difference between a splinter and a sliver I would like to know, and will give you a dollar])

Right now I am working on a big project for work, it's going to be played at the Fire Science Graduation, so I'm pretty happy. I have a lot of responcibalities, it feels good.



School
School is going pretty good, i wish i registered earlier than I did, but I'm ok with it. I have already learned tons. I know how to make my own DVD Meuns(I still like iDvd), I know how to light tv and film better, I kinda like my audio class...
and hate Art majors. <-- Possabily more on that later.

Friends
I miss everyone :( I wish it was last year. I miss seeing Jessica all the time. I miss seeing my sweet B. I miss Nate day with Kim in Stereo(kim B. and C.) I miss seeing Patsy and hanging out after English on her portch talking about movie ideas. I miss random things with Oswald.(I miss you too c.c. but i didn't see you enough last year to begin with.)
I want to see everyone again soon, I hope I see Jessica and B this weekend, it's been too long.


Next Year
Ok so not too many people know this but I might not be in Michigan next year. I am thinking of changing schools to something biger. I'm thinking New York, Chicago, or whatever catches my eye in the future. I really want to either do Lighting (Director of Photography) or Edit. My safety would be T.V. but not T.V.-T.V, like a show like Arrested Development, or something to that effect. (I'd like to make short films in my spare time too) Nothing is finalized so I don't know what's going to happen yet.

In summary (because I should get back to work)
I am happy, yet I am also sad, but I guess everyone is sad a little. I love work, and am happy to be with Michael.

And I will try to update more.